I am left to my own devices in this world without my Mother. <br />She was the compass in the maps of my life. <br />She was my rock, my anchor, my stronghold, ever so bold. <br />She never steered me wrong. <br />Her guidance and her calm were fortitude in any weather. <br /> <br />Now what do I do with myself? <br />I don't know if I am on the right course. <br />Without her guidance I feel I am a ship lost at sea, <br />drifting in an unknown direction. <br />It was the wind in her sails that led me. <br /> <br />I always felt connected, and now I do not. <br />I may have a hold of my wheel, <br />but I don't exactly know which way I am to head. <br />How will I get there without the wind she fed me? <br />I don't have my compass, just lousy sea legs. <br /> <br />I feel weak and afraid. <br />How do I make it to my destination without a compass? <br />I am still afraid to walk the deck of my ship alone. <br />Can I sail this life by myself? <br />Can I find the land of my sanctuary <br />and my balance in the seas to come? <br />Or will I run? <br />But where will I run? <br />Although I believe she could walk on water, <br />I cannot. <br />Will I hide? <br />Will I cry? <br /> <br />I can become my own anchor, <br />the Captain of my own ship. <br />Am I strong enough? <br />Isn't that what she would want for me; <br />to sail around the world on my own, in my own life? <br />Will my determination inspire her to feed me her wind? <br />Will her presence in the skies guide me to what I can be? <br />Will her loving arms push the wind, to set my sails straight? <br /> <br />She would want me to be my own Captain. <br />She would want for me to conguer the sea. <br />Because she knows that to hang onto that wheel, <br />and guide my own ship, <br />would be a great accomplishment, <br />and that would make her proud. <br /> <br />She is my rock. <br />She is my anchor. <br />She is my compass. <br />She is my wind. <br /> <br />In her wind I find my way. <br />She is leading me, every day.<br /><br />Victoria Gauci<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/she-is-my-rock/
