I have to do some soul searching <br />Eyes swollen and my heart is hurting <br />I’ve lost my way and everything is all blurry <br />I’m stuck right here because I love you only <br />I wished I was immune to pain <br />This love feeling forever driving me insane <br />So many questions and little or no answer <br />This is the fabrics of my life damn it; I have to make an alter <br />Yes I do love you…a bit too much <br />Then you upset me and I want to kill or strangle your guts <br />Today I realized what I was doing wrong <br />I confided in you when I was feeling out and down <br />Though I love you dearly <br />I mean no disrespect but me telling you my problems shouldn’t be <br />Oh my oh my I forgot about writing my emotions on a piece of paper <br />Writing until I can’t write no more...Read it to myself and burn it after <br />I hope it’s not too late… I hope I haven’t scarred you for life with my crying <br />Pen and paper I have to go back to basics <br />I’m an old dog (not really) I’ve forgot my old tricks <br />So I’ll sit here and see everything <br />Silence shall be my best friend for I shall say nothing<br /><br />Anita Khelawan<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/r-i-p-my-depression/
