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Ramona Thompson - Dissociative Identity Disorder

2014-06-12 103 Dailymotion

Don't know what's happening to me <br />I'm missing huge chunks of time and sometimes I hear a voice <br />Surely this can't be real <br />Splitting into two different verisons of yourself just does not happen <br />Oh God, please <br />Can somebody tell me that it doesn't? <br />I just want to be normal like everybody else <br />A whole person <br />Torn not in half by some secret that my own mind keeps playing hide and seek with <br />Independent and free from this mental instability <br />Virgin and whore trapped inside the same body <br />Every second that we're forced to co-exist is torture <br /> <br />I have been suicidal for so long now that I've forgotten what it's like to want to live <br />Damaged but by what or who or why I don' t know <br />Ellen is the only one that knows and so far my sinster little alter isn't talking <br />No one in my family wants to help or talk about it <br />They just ignore me and say that I must be losing my mind <br />I am the black sheep, after all <br />They taunt and tease so cruel <br />Leaving me yearning helplessly for some kind <br />Any kind of human comfort and understanding <br /> <br />Desperate <br />I'll take any kind of help that someone out there is willing to offer me <br />Slipping more and more away <br />One more day of this <br />I swear <br />I just cannot take <br /> <br />Running scared no longer <br />Determined now to admit to and be in control of my illness at last <br />Either that or I'll take a baseball bat to my own head <br />Anything it takes <br />To once and for all <br />Remove this other me from me <br /> <br />2008 Ramona Thompson<br /><br />Ramona Thompson<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/dissociative-identity-disorder/

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