what is this fantasy that has taken over me? <br />I'm half-asleep and I am half-dreaming <br />that you are about to leave this earth <br /> <br />the hospital corridor is crowded this time of night <br />I walk as quickly as I possibly can <br />oh, I never did love you enough for what you're worth <br /> <br />and I'm sorry that this is coming out a little too late <br />as I reach your bedside, alone and afraid <br />I never stopped loving you for a single day <br /> <br />and I'm sorry that this is happening a little too quickly <br />but I need you to know how much I'll miss you when you're gone <br />the worst part is, you can't do anything about it now anyway <br /> <br />I came on impulse to this place <br />knowing that it would be my last chance to see your face <br />and I don't want you to have any doubt in what I say to you <br /> <br />I came because I thought that you should know <br />everything I kept inside was covered up by endless lies <br />and I want you to believe what I say now, because it's all true <br /> <br />every night I closed my eyes and I remembered <br />and the way it made me feel brought all this to my attention <br />I told them all I never loved you, I lied to myself as well <br /> <br />I took the wheel and pulled over <br />I opened the passenger door and told you never to come back <br />I pulled back onto the road and drove myself into hell <br /> <br />I never could have, never should have, never would have known <br />that I was hurting us both so severely by making sure you weren't near me <br />and now you're dying and I can't take back the words I spoke <br /> <br />now you're dying and you can't take back the hearts you broke <br />now you're dying and I can't take back the hearts I broke <br />now you're dying and we can't take back the hearts we broke <br /> <br />it was all just a dream (heavy breathing) <br />it was all just my imagination (calming down now) <br />but figuratively, that was reality <br />and your heat is still broken because of me<br /><br />Jade Leven<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/before-you-die/
