I came into this world with 5 sisters and 3 brothers <br />I suffered with the loss of two brothers and I was devasted <br />Then I realized I had lost one of my sisters <br />AND my only living brother... <br />Understand, both of them are alive and well <br />But, I still yearn for them to be a part of my life <br />It took me a long time to even realize it and once I did <br />WOW... I can't comprehend why or how, <br />I honestly do not know what I did to make these two people dislike me <br />I ask, 'Is it because I grew up with my Mother and NOT with OUR Father? ' <br />'Is it because I didn't graduate college? ' <br />'Is it because I can't measure up to these two financially? ' <br />'Are they embarrassed or ashamed of/by me? ' <br />WHY? What have I done? What do I need to do? <br />I just want my sister and brother to be a part of my life <br />That is all, just acknowledge who I am, acknowledge ME as your sister <br />I can't grasp the answers to these questions... <br />I can say, I have never asked for anything from either <br />WAIT! Let me be honest, I DID ask my sister for ANY amount of money <br />But it was for a medical reason... to help save my life <br />(1 or 2 hundred dollars so I could get medical attention... I asked only once and didn't receive anything) <br />Why and HOW does one dislike a sibling so much, that they can't even say 'Merry Christmas'? <br />Or when I call I am hurried off the phone, making me feel unimportant <br />How does a person live their entire life disliking their sibling, their SISTER... <br />WHAT IS THE REASON? <br />I can't answer that question... because I don't know the answer <br />Am I such a terrible person? Have I stolen something from either of them? <br />Am I not pretty enough, rich enough, educated enough... <br />Am I unclaimed because of my medical issues? Because, I didn't cause them <br />My health is nothing I did to myself, I strive to be well and I work hard at it <br />I don't want pity, sympathy or ANYTHING... <br />I just want my FAMILY!<br /><br />Catherine Hendry<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/a-poem-for-siblings/
