Remember when you rejected my apology? <br />And I did my best... <br />With effort that still makes me wonder, <br />'Why'? <br />Why was I then so forgiving. <br />Giving you the benefit of a doubt. <br />And when you said 'No'... <br />I felt you had crushed my heart. <br />And you knew your response would do it! <br /> <br />Remember when you rejected my apology? <br />And I did my best... <br />With effort that still makes me wonder, <br />'Why'? <br />And I am wondering 'why' right now. <br />Why are you here, <br />To beg from me the same. <br />And 'why' do you appear to me now... <br />Bigger than the fool, <br />I could never be, <br />Again! <br /> <br />I forgave you then... <br />For doing what you did to me. <br />But I would never forgive myself... <br />If I allowed you, <br />To play with and/or use my emotions. <br />No! <br />I can not revive, <br />What is not alive there for you! <br />No! <br />Go back to your abusive husband. <br />Your lover who had once made me believe, <br />He and I had been friends.<br /><br />Lawrence S. Pertillar<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/he-and-i-had-been-friends/
