Anger buried deep inside, created scars inside and out. <br />A childhood of pain and hidden secrets had me wishing for love. <br />Tender soul wounded deep, mirrors reflected the pain inside. <br />A lifetime of pain and sorrow covered what was really there. <br /> <br />Accusations generated threats, pushed a gentle mind into chaos. <br />Please don’t touch, don’t speak, don’t look at me, you’re not safe! <br />Were words which couldn’t be spoken, so they couldn’t be heard. <br />Ten years of terror, locked in a depression so deep, no light was seen. <br /> <br />One person lost within that nightmare, had to be defined again. <br />Who am I now? Who do I want to be? Why should I care about me? <br />Emotions, dammed up inside, left no tears for my grandson when he died. <br />One night that dam gave way; ten years of tears took hours to spill. <br /> <br />Who am I now? As before, a lover of words, a dreamer of dreams. <br />Barriers have been breached, offenses imagined or not, examined. <br />I know who I am. I look in the mirror and like what I see. <br />Not weird…unique. Talented, caring, loving, generous. I am me.<br /><br />Gail Deemer<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/out-of-the-darkness-4/
