I died when you died <br />Seven months to this day <br />Suffocated, breathless <br />As I watched my life slip painfully away. <br /> <br />I tried to hold on; <br />It was a vicious fight <br />But my strength was nothing <br />Beside His might. <br /> <br />Reluctant am I <br />To release my grasp on your life <br />My strife is more than one can bear <br />But whoever said that life was fair? <br /> <br />Yours ripped away <br />From my Utopian world <br />The sun rose <br />Accompanied by an evil, named Hell. <br /> <br />Hell on earth; it was here we met <br />For though I have but few despondent days <br />This one was dire <br />In the ultimate way <br /> <br />It tore me apart, <br />Limb from limb <br />And then it dared me <br />To take a swim <br /> <br />Struggling for air <br />As I sink to the floor <br />Of the deepest dark pool <br />But still there is more <br /> <br />Initiation: I am gutted and eaten <br />By my evil sea friend <br />Satan, they call him <br />Even here it does not end. <br /> <br />My heart and thoughts plague me <br />I am beyond your repair <br />Disillusioned as I enter <br />A new life of unknown despair <br /> <br />Beyond this is harder <br />Than one’s mind can endure <br />The darkest disease <br />Of which Death holds the cure <br /> <br />To witness the sorrows <br />Of those who surround me <br />Keeps me locked in my prison <br />In sight there’s no key <br /> <br />I’m left here <br />Wiping my tears <br />Destiny, eternity <br />Has got me on the run <br /> <br />No end in sight <br />No darker night <br />No way to cope <br />No need for hope <br /> <br />Wiping my tears <br />Until I realize <br />That those tears <br />Are my deepest dark pool. <br /> <br />The tears engulf me, drown me <br />Yet set me free <br />As free as Satan’s Sorrow <br />Will allow the world to be.<br /><br />Heather Ashley<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/seven-months-and-drowning/
