In anger and pain <br />I banished from my mind <br />The name and shape of you. <br />I snuffed out all hope <br />I allowed malice and spite to grow <br />And then just like that, <br />I killed all feelings good and bad <br />Until you no longer lived in my mind. <br /> <br />Years came and years went <br />But you had stolen shelter <br />In the shadows of my mind. <br />In fleeting moments <br />You showed yourself to me. <br />But by then, <br />No emotions were felt: <br />No anger, no pain <br />No malice or spite <br />You were just another face <br />In the sea of faces lost in my mind. <br /> <br />Then one day, <br />Unexpected and true to form <br />You emerged out of the shadows <br />And Into my life. <br />A living breathing form, <br />Seeking reconnection <br />Stretching a hand out <br />In supplication. <br /> <br />Emotions once again flooded me. <br />Not anger, not pain <br />Nor malice, nor spite <br />This time, <br />Tears of relief flooded my eyes. <br />For things were made clear to me, <br />Things I dreaded to believe <br />Things that you admitted to <br />Things that soothed my heart, <br />Giving me hope to trust in you once again. <br /> <br />But wisdom and caution <br />Voiced restraint <br />And now like two strangers <br />Connecting for the first time <br />We try once again <br />To attain some sort <br />Of father daughter relationship <br />That is stable if only in name.<br /><br />Tiffny Rhodius<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/reconnecting/
