As for the matter of my family, <br />and where I put my trust, <br />as for the secrets I kept from everyone, <br />even my secret lust. <br /> <br />My dear family is precious, <br />they know more of me then you, <br />they stuck by me those fateful years, <br />when you did not have to, <br />they believed that i would change it up, <br />grow up and turn around, <br />get my feet planted in the dirt, <br />in the solid and stern ground. <br /> <br />Every time I tricked myself, <br />into believing yet, <br />another lie, <br />they were always there to bring me back again, <br />although often I wondered why. <br /> <br />I never thought I was worth much, <br />never valued the things I did, <br />never tried to share my secrets, <br />not even as a kid, <br />my family dis banned my pride, <br />told me their troubles too, <br />so when i shared my fateful story, <br />i didn't feel so much in the blue. <br /> <br />When I lost myself completely, <br />when I tried to commit suicide, <br />my family came, <br />quickly and sternly, <br />powerfully to my side. <br /> <br />When family is as powerful as mine, <br />when they love so deeply it cannot be explained, <br />that's when you know you're in good hands, <br />even throwing up the pills until 2: 00am. <br /> <br />I may have been a screw up, <br />a mess up, <br />a stupid idiot, <br />a selfish fool, <br />looking for all the wrong things, <br />At all the wrong times, <br />in all the wrong places, <br />may have even taken a few wrong turns, <br />but when you've got something good, <br />like my family, <br />they let you fix it, <br />and don't hold it against you, <br />not ever, <br />no even once....<br /><br />Sandra jacks<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/my-family-41/
