I want you to miss me <br />There could be fog <br />Or maybe just a mist <br />And inexplicably I'll fade to white <br />Vanish, and be gone <br /> <br />Or it could be night <br />And I'll be darkly dressed, <br />Evading easy definition <br />And as your eye's distracted <br />By a falling leaf <br />I'll merge with restless shadows <br />And be gone <br /> <br />Then you will discover <br />What emptiness is <br /> <br />A space so hollow <br />Even its own walls are swallowed up <br /> <br />A quality of missing <br />So intense <br />A lack, a lack <br /> <br />Each hour more bottomless than the last <br />Until your heart cries out, <br />A howl of forfeiture <br /> <br />But it will be nothing <br />Ashen silence where I used to sing <br />And deafness <br /> <br />The howl must strike the right resonant frequency <br />A wail that echoes all to the ends of time <br />To fill the gaping void in whole, looping wavelengths <br />From the well of your soul, such loneliness <br />To make Siberian wolves hang heads for shame <br />In their convivial packs <br /> <br />Then, only then <br />Might you detect my footprints, indistinct <br />Marking the morning dew fall <br /> <br />Perhaps glimpse a puff of breath <br />in the cold, dawn air <br /> <br />You must utter <br />A howl so desolate, it <br /> <br />Jerks you from your sleep <br />To find me warm beside you on your pillow <br /> <br />And you will know how <br />Close you were to the brink <br />Of the abyss <br /> <br />And know what missing is <br />And hold me.<br /><br />mandy faye<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-want-you-to-miss-me/
