I'm having a very bad, lonely year <br />Although I know I'm not the only one <br />So I'll spill, as I call it, just a little bit <br />Everything in 2005 has been on the run <br /> <br />My husband's in jail for DUI and child abuse <br />For driving fucked up with our son in the car <br />Although I know I could bail him out <br />I know he wouldn't go very far <br /> <br />I'm feeling very lost and empty <br />Almost like I want to cry <br />My lover left for New Orleans <br />And he didn't even say goodbye <br /> <br />I know he had to go for work <br />But I still miss him anyway <br />I know I'll see him when he returns <br />But I think of him every day <br /> <br />My girlfriend went home to West Palm <br />Just a little road trip with her son <br />She got food poisoning and has been sick <br />She said she won't be back until it's done <br /> <br />My best friend has been working alot <br />She calls whenever she gets a chance <br />We go for a drink and catchup on goings on <br />Then she leaves without a backwards glance <br /> <br />This is only the very tip top <br />Of the bullshit life I've been handed <br />I ask for a little attention once in awhile <br />And somehow I always feel abandoned <br /> <br />I'll stop here, before I get depressed <br />Alone for the first time in my life <br />I'm starting out new, only me and my kids <br />The emptiness inside cuts me like a knife <br /> <br />09/14/2005<br /><br />Angelique' Rockwell<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/spilling/
