I'm aware I said I wouldn't do it again <br />But of course I knew I probably would <br />I slept with the man with the great hugs <br />I did it, I think, because I wanted to and could <br /> <br />I know nothing will ever come from it <br />But it seems he really pays attention <br />When I need it and am feeling alone <br />It's very comforting, and sweet, not to mention <br /> <br />Afterwards he gets extremely quiet <br />I'm curious as to what it is he's thinking <br />I just can't help myself but to hug him <br />Then he leaves and again I start sinking <br /> <br />Nothing fills the lonely emptiness <br />Definately not these one night things <br />But my hugger and my lover help alot <br />And with them there are no strings <br /> <br />I know my hugger cares for me at little <br />Now my lover I can't yet say that for <br />But I know whenever we part ways <br />I want to go running back for more <br /> <br />My life is really quite busy right now <br />Between my kids and my job <br />There isn't time for a relationship <br />But alone, by myself, I began to sob <br /> <br />Can I really live life alone by myself? <br />That is something I need to find out <br />I think I need the personal contact also <br />'Cause I know that's what it's all about <br /> <br />Holding someone and being held <br />This is what I really, truly crave <br />Is there someone out there like that? <br />If not I'll, alone, try to be brave <br /> <br />09/07/2005<br /><br />Angelique' Rockwell<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/trying-to-be-brave/
