My finger's on the trigger and you're standing in the way. <br />I got one shot to make it stop and the pain will go away. <br />Please don't try to change my mind, the decision has been made. <br />So I'll close my eyes and hold my breath, you can't stop me, it's too late. <br /> <br />You might call me crazy but this isn't suicide. <br />It's not the desire to die I have, but the fear to stay alive. <br />I just can't take the broken hearts, and the nights of endless tears. <br />I don't want to face what else will come, I want it to end right here. <br /> <br />I held on longer that I could, I went through things that no one should. <br />I tried to stay strong and I was doing so good, <br />But I lost my mind like you knew that I would. <br /> <br />You didn't see through my little charade, <br />You thought I was happy, but it was a game. <br />And when you catch on it will be way to late, <br />Ignoring me was your biggest mistake! <br /> <br />Not once would you come talk to me, instead you would disregard, <br />The fact that I was crumbling, breaking and falling apart. <br />You thought it was for attention, so you just sat there in silence, <br />You never even realized I really needed your guidance. <br /> <br />You wanted so bad to look at me and see an exact reflection, <br />Of everything you used to be, you wanted to see perfection. <br />But perfect isn't who I was, it isn't what I am, <br />I don't want to end up just like you, why didn't you understand? <br /> <br />I'm sorry that I couldn't be who you wanted for a daughter. <br />I tried my best to measure up, but you weren't much of a father.<br /><br />Crystal Johnson<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/trigger-happy-2/
