I have believed and yet have not <br />and felt the bullets from both sides <br />who say it's harder to believe <br />while others say it's truth denied. <br /> <br />And I have sat in churches old <br />with prayers and with folded hands <br />and watched the weary faces bow <br />in honor to a greater man. <br /> <br />While later on in later years <br />in lecture halls I tried to find <br />a reason for each breath I took <br />a piece to fill my darkening mind. <br /> <br />But it wasn't Gabriel who came <br />nor Darwin with his evidence. <br />Just silence in the shape of this <br />a head in hands with reverence. <br /> <br />And what, what really can they say? <br />That a man has tried with all he is to pray?<br /><br />Ben Paynter<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-have-believed-and-yet-have-not/
