How much longer until it ends <br />How many more days can I pretend <br />That everything is going the way it should <br />Not sure how much longer I can hold it in <br />And make it seem like I’m ok <br />It seems I have no where to go, no where to hide <br />Everyday it’s as though a piece of me dies <br />Everything is not alright <br />As I delve deeper and deeper into my depressive state <br />I realize how lost I am, and I’m waiting to be saved <br />When I’m not sure if I even have a savior <br />Every escape I had has abandoned me it seems <br />Turned off the vacant sign, pulled in the welcome mat <br />Where are you? You seem so cold, so distant <br />And I need you, but you’re gone, I’m alone <br />Maybe I am what they say <br />Perhaps I am unworthy of love <br />I am the psychotic whore they see <br />And the future I dismissed of me being alone <br />Is the only reality I deserve, maybe that’s all there is for me<br /><br />Guarded Heart<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/maybe-it-s-the-only-reality-i-deserve/
