I spent half my life <br />Trying to be someone else <br />Now I'm trying to be me <br />But honesty is not what sells <br /> <br />I'm tired of trying to act <br />Like someone I am not <br />But many people don't appreciate <br />And when I say some, I mean alot <br /> <br />Why was I trying so hard? <br />Now I just want to be <br />But everytime I turn around <br />Its negativity that I see <br /> <br />I know my kids are involved <br />Please don't think I'm blind <br />But how can they respect me <br />If I'm not one of a kind <br /> <br />Like is like a rollercoaster <br />It has its ups and downs <br />Everyone works for the circus <br />Down to the mimes and the clowns <br /> <br />There is a seperation <br />Between fantasy and the truth <br />Defining the definition <br />Sometimes you must be a sleuth <br /> <br />Lord only knows <br />That I pray every day <br />To do my best in making happy <br />The people with whom I play <br /> <br />I want to be responsible <br />I want to open people's eyes <br />I want to end the sadness <br />I want to stop all the lies <br /> <br />So when the hurt is finished <br />And the healing begins <br />I ask God to ease the pain <br />And to forgive all the sins <br /> <br />I think whatever we endeaver <br />Makes us who we become <br />And if you're a good person <br />It'll show when all said and done <br /> <br />So please keep all this in mind <br />Whenever you hit or scream <br />Not everything exactly is <br />Whatever it may seem <br /> <br />5/19/2006<br /><br />Angelique' Rockwell<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/hindsight/
