Dark rewrite of New Edition's If It Isn't Love <br /> <br />He did't rape me <br />I tried to tell myself <br />But I can see it in my haunted, tortured eyes <br />I can no longer deny <br />I can't fool myself or anyone else <br />The truth is clear in the tears that I cry tonight cause <br /> <br />If it was't rape <br />Why do I feel this way? <br />Why are those brutal memories always ripping their way through my mind? <br />If it was't rape <br />Why does it feel so bad? <br />Make me feel so sick inside <br />If it was't rape <br /> <br />He told me that it was just a rough, really rough act of love <br />But something inside of me knows better <br /> <br />How does it feel? <br />To be quite honest <br />I can't even begin to describe this awful feelin' <br />That came after he was done with me last night <br />Somehow he got to me <br />I just wish I knew the reason why <br />Maybe, just maybe, it's all my fault <br />'Cause he saw me with another guy <br /> <br />Chorus <br /> <br />Maybe someday I'll be able to pay him back <br />Get him back for the damage he's inflicted <br />Someday, someway <br />Gonna have him begging on his knees, please <br />Girl, I made one hell of a big mistake <br />Oh yeah, I'll make him feel it <br />The pain, the shame, the heartbreak <br />All of it <br />Just like I felt it <br />'Cause <br />My God <br />I can't <br />I just can't ever forgive him <br />'Cause he did <br />He really did hurt me <br />Break me <br />Like no one else ever had before <br />Broke me <br /> <br />It took one night, one night of unforgetable violence <br />To shatter my soul into a billion million pieces <br />Before I'd ever realize <br />Before I'd ever understand just how cruel, damn cruel this world could be <br />Lost my innocence <br />Helped my heart to see that <br /> <br />Chorus <br /> <br />2008 Ramona Thompson<br /><br />Ramona Thompson<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/if-it-was-t-rape/
