So you wanna know everything about me? <br />You wanna know what goes on? <br />Well one thing you should know <br />Is that my love for you in gone <br /> <br />First things first <br />I cut my myself to deal with pain <br />And today after I spoke to you <br />I cut over and over again <br /> <br />Another thing about me <br />I have issues with self esteem <br />Because my innocence was ripped from me <br />I was raped at 13 <br /> <br />I never feel good enough <br />With anything I do <br />And with of all people <br />I never feel good enough for you <br /> <br />I’m tortured with this hurt <br />Every single day <br />I’ve tried to explain it <br />But I don’t know what to say <br /> <br />More than anything it hurts <br />To think of how you treated Mum <br />And although you may not know it <br />I understand what went on <br /> <br />No ones ever f***ing good enough for you <br />Except your precious Vicky <br />Well know you’re faced with the consequences <br />Of what that’s done to me <br /> <br />If only you could see the scars <br />On my body and my soul <br />And how f***ing much it hurts <br />That you didn’t care when my innocence was stole <br /> <br />Over and over <br />Throughout my life <br />I’ve been hurt so damn much <br />You wonder why I turn to a knife <br /> <br />There’s been times when I’ve been so down <br />I’ve contemplated suicide <br />But you’ve never known <br />Cos my scars I hide <br /> <br />There’s so much more to say <br />That I just can’t explain <br />So many times that you have hurt me <br />Over and over again <br /> <br />But I’ve been in so much pain <br />Pain that you never saw <br />And this has tipped me over the edge <br />I don’t wanna be here anymore<br /><br />Amelie Anonymous<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/for-my-father-so-you-wanna-know-everything/
