Can anyone know what I'm going through? Even I can't understand and it's happening to me. I can't really explain. It's the girl that starves me and gives <br />me laxatives, it's the girl that used to gash my ankles, it's the girl that only sees failure, and the one who wants to give in to the inevitable. You <br />know the one I'm talking about? That one that blames me in the night for my Mom's death, and the one that, no matter how hard she tries, will never be <br />good enough. She puts me down for trying, and laughs at me for crying. She's the selfish one, the fat one, the one that will hate me till the day I die. <br />It is a struggle, a war I fight every day. Me and her. I try to be strong, but I'm not strong enough. I try to go on with my life, but she won't let me. <br />She won't be happy until she has won, and if she does, then I will lose. She's been with me for as long as I can remember, and nothing I do will make her <br />go away. She takes my life and turns it up-side-down. And the only time she is happy is when she knocks me down. I try to get up and start again, but she's <br />lingering in the shadows waiting for a weak moment when she can strike me once more. You think you know, but you can't understand because she lives inside <br />of me.<br /><br />Ashley Seymour<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/can-any-one-know/
