And again tonight I feel like I can’t breathe <br />Again I feel like this life is crushing down on me <br />And I’m too weak to go on <br />It seems like everything in my world is grey <br />And I’m dying in want of color <br />And I’m losing all my warmth <br />It feels like I’m just the ugliest thing on earth <br />And everyone is laughing out at me <br />And I’m trying to hide myself under my shadow <br />I’m trying to keep me sober <br />And it only lets me see what I really am <br />And nothing changes when I open my eyes <br />I’m tired of hanging on to this life <br />And there is no one left to blame it on <br />And there is no place left for me to go <br />Again it seems like I’m standing alone in the rain <br />And there is no one to behold my death <br />And there is nothing that can hold me back <br />Again it feels like there still is a little left to be hoped <br />That everything gonna be okay one day <br />That like everyone I’ll be fine one day <br />But it’s “today” that’s killing me <br />And I wish I were just a little bit stronger <br />So that I can survive this loneliness <br />To see one more bright dawn <br />To witness one more crimson sunset <br />But I sense the life in me expire <br />And there is no one there to save me <br />And there is one to lend me a little dream <br />As I whisper these words dying alone in silence <br />I find a blackened piece of cloud listening to me <br />And with a sigh then I close my eyes <br />And with a fading smile I leave this world <br />Knowing that after I’m long gone <br />There will be a black rain coming down from sky <br />And the wondering people will take shelter under their roofs <br />And my rain won’t touch anybody <br />Just like my sorrows have never done <br />But I hope when the rain is over <br />There will be a dazzling sun smiling down at you <br />And there will never be a black rain interrupting your lives <br />Nor there will be a hollow lament filling your air <br />For I’m long gone from your world <br />And you people can cheer now….<br /><br />RoNoK NoRoK<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/blackened-cloud-crying/
