So this is how it's going to be <br />In this crazy world there's me/ <br />Sometimes I feel like I'm stuck in a trap <br />Maybe I deserve a slap? <br /> <br />One minute I'm up the next I'm down <br />I don't know whether to smile or frown. <br />Things will never be the same <br />I can't help but feel that I'm to blame. <br /> <br />There are some things I find too difficult to talk about <br />In my mind there will always be doubt. <br />How I wish it wasn't so hard <br />That I always have to be on my guard. <br /> <br />I wish I could erase my brain <br />To put a stop to this emotional pain. <br />There are things that I need to get off my chest <br />So I can try and put this all to rest. <br /> <br />I know I've got people there <br />But there are some things too painful to share. <br />All I ever wanted was a Mum <br />But I won't go back, I'm not that foolish or dumb. <br /> <br />Was it so much to ask for some love? <br />I even prayed to the Lord up above. <br />I guess he couldn't hear my pleas <br />As I got down on bended knees. <br /> <br />Maybe it was my fate that Mum and Paul met <br />And that I truly do deserve everything I get. <br />Either way it doesn't matter any more <br />There is no justice that's for sure. <br /> <br />I will never be the same again <br />I will always be wary around drunken men. <br />Never again can I trust a single word that passes from my mother lips <br />She won't be satisfied until my heart rips. <br /> <br />It's all their fault my Baby died <br />They enjoyed sitting there and watching me as I cried. <br />Sometimes I still think the one who died should have been me <br />But I guess this is how my life's meant to be.<br /><br />Hannah Davies<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/meant-to-be/
