I used to get nightmares. <br /> <br />They differed but they also had something in common... in some way, I was being held down. <br /> <br />I either couldn't breathe, couldn't move, or just had no control. <br /> <br />I'd wake up gasping for breath. I'd open my eyes and see the safety of my room. I was safe, I was in my place, and everything would be alright. <br /> <br />I'm being pushed down again. I can't breathe and I have no control. <br /> <br />This time I can't just open my eyes...it's real. <br /> <br />I'm being pushed from my friends and family. I'm being pushed from my home, my entire life, from the world I've known. <br /> <br />I want to hide, I want to feel the same safety that I used to get but it's no longer there...there's just dread and darkness. <br /> <br />In my heart, I feel nothing bur anger and pain. <br /> <br />I want to scream, I want to yell, or even just sit in a corner a cry. <br /> <br />People say that everything will be alright or that I'm just overreacting. <br /> <br />This is not them....this is happening to me. <br /> <br />At the end of the day they go to the warmth of their homes while I sit in this place and wonder what's to come next. Wonder where I'll end up. <br /> <br />I want someone to hold me and say that everything will be alright. <br /> <br />I don't want Susie Sunshine I want truth...pure truth. <br /> <br />I want this pain to go away. I want to be near that warm light. <br /> <br />I want to be held and protected. <br /> <br />I want...<br /><br />Nicole Ferencz<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/this-isn-t-much-of-a-poem-but-it-s-my-only-way-to-vent/
