All these memories <br />are comming back <br /> <br />along with the jiggle on my hips <br />pure fat <br /> <br />I ate too much today <br />and for a while, my depression went away <br /> <br />Now i've just realize <br />how ugly and worthless I am <br /> <br />compared to all these other girls <br />pathetic is what i am <br /> <br />thats why ana always comes first <br />shes the best curse <br /> <br />when its all about me <br />and how happy i can be <br /> <br />its not other people <br />i have to please <br /> <br />its just going to be <br />perfection i need <br />I don't need other's <br />approval to live <br /> <br />I need to lose weight <br />to keep from slitting my wrist <br /> <br />I need to cut off my hair <br />to lose 5 pounds <br /> <br />and take cold showers <br />so the calories won make a sound <br /> <br />when i walk through the house <br />i want to hear no footsteps <br /> <br />when i walk in the snow <br />i want to leave nothing but the sweep of my dress <br /> <br />i want to walk <br />through the cracks of doors <br /> <br />i want to be a stick figure <br />not a whore <br /> <br />I want to feel pretty <br />even when im not <br /> <br />i want to be worth more <br />than you fought <br /> <br />The less you weigh <br />the more your worth <br /> <br />thats americas best curse <br /> <br />when there are people <br />stuffing mcdonalds down their throats <br /> <br />i hope one day they will choke <br /> <br />Anas will rule the word <br />one day <br /> <br />we will over power you <br />with our strength <br /> <br />eventhough we'er all <br />underweight<br /><br />Toine Sheppard<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/the-top-of-my-list/
