Calling <br />Shout <br />Yelling <br />Screaming <br /> <br />Wanting <br />Feeling <br />Needing <br />Bleeding <br /> <br />All these word I have heard before <br />I thought 'not me...' <br />He loves me too much <br />To walk out that door.... <br /> <br />I WAS WRONG... terribly wrong... <br />I once was happy, <br />Now I'm dieing... <br />I am sick of all this lieing <br /> <br />I lay here thinking <br />Thinking and drinking <br />Drinking in the darkness <br />The darkness that surrounds my life <br /> <br />I yearn for color <br />As my life grows duller <br />In this black strife <br />I reach for a knife <br /> <br />I could end it all now <br />End all the strife <br />End my life <br />With this knife <br /> <br />I cut myself <br />As the black fades <br />Blood remains <br />My eyes see red <br /> <br />I wish I was dead <br />Oh how I wish I was dead <br />As all this runs through me head <br />I remember those words... <br /> <br />Calling <br />Shout <br />Yelling <br />Screaming <br /> <br />Wanting <br />Feeling <br />Needing <br />Bleeding <br /> <br />I say to myself, 'I should have listened' <br />but I didnt <br />I thought that my dream might come true <br />But all it was was a nightmare <br /> <br />My blue carpet is now crimson red <br />As I lie here wishing I was dead <br />I look at my floor and remember you <br />I look at my door and scream about you... <br /> <br />You haunt my dreams <br />As you call me into hell <br />But then I make up my mind <br />I will mourn you no more! <br /> <br />As I get up off my floor <br />I think of my life <br />Of my hell... <br />Oh well... <br /> <br />(5.10.04) <br />(Dedicated to CLL)<br /><br />Lauren Harris<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/calling-6/
