As I walk within and about my house <br />I think of the bad people that would like to do me wrong <br />So now I lock my doors and windows before I go to bed <br />As my forgiveness is short, but my memories are long, <br />In the past I have been called too trusting of a man <br />I try to believe what is told or what is said to me <br />I think no one would deliberately cause me pain or harm <br />But then sometimes my vision is clouded, so I cannot see, <br />I truly would rather be surrounded by an enemy <br />Than being with a lying, untrustworthy person or friend <br />As I am prepared for a strangers schemes and also their lies <br />So against them and their ways, I am ready to defend, <br />In life we all are prepared for pain and hurt and lies <br />When it comes to us by accident or from someone that we do not know <br />But when we receive it by a friend or family member we are in shock <br />As we cannot ever understand the reason, for that ugly blow, <br />I turn off the lights and then I crawl in my bed and I am all alone <br />Now I truly prefer to sleep with just my pillow and me <br />As I have been in bed with a woman that I had loved long ago <br />But she proved to be antagonist, so now I sleep with nobody, <br />It would be much better for anyone to grow old all alone <br />Than being with a cheat and a liar to the very end <br />Now I don't have to worry about betrayal and lies any more <br />So sleeping alone in my situation, I would greatly recommend, <br />I don't ever want to wake up with a knife in my back <br />And I don't want to wake up to anger or hate <br />I don't want to wake up to a love who now is my foe <br />When I wake up, I want to arise with a love that won't deteriorate, <br />So now as I lie on my bed I think while I try to fall asleep <br />I still have nightmares and memories that hurt and chill me to the bone <br />Strangers and accidents they no longer worry or bother me <br />But the fear of the betrayal of a love frightens me, so now I am alone. <br /> <br />Randy L. McClave<br /><br />Randy McClave<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-am-alone-38/
