As i sit up my bed, <br />Just woke up from another nightmare, <br />Living a misery, <br />And i'm all alone, <br />No one to call, <br />No one to go to, <br />No one, <br />I have a drink, <br />And sit down with myself, <br />The TV won't work, <br />I get mad, <br />I go try to play my guitar, <br />But i have no talent no more, <br />I get upset, <br />I look at old pictures, old friends, old family, <br />My heart can't take this pain, <br />I run up to the roof, <br />I stand still and think to myself, <br />Will this be easy on me? <br />Will i die feeling pain still? <br />Will i be a ghost or burn in hell? <br />And questions fill my head up, <br />I take a step forward, <br />I take a look down, i see the ground below me, <br />I look up at the sky, i see a beautiful world up there, <br />And i can feel the suicidal impulses, <br />But i'm scared, <br />I haven't seen the best of life yet, <br />I've only seen the worst of it, <br />I want to step back, but its pushing me, <br />And no one is trying to stop, <br />Will this be fun? <br />Will this make them realise how hurt i was? <br />Will this even correct my mistakes? <br />Somehow, i know the answers, <br />But i can't grab them. <br /> <br />In 24 hours they'll be laying flowers on my life, <br />No one taught me how to stand strong on my own, <br />And no one knows i grew up with no love, <br />I survive day by day, <br />Just to be a believer in love once again, <br />Or to hear him say those tormenting words? <br />And his eyes says love was never true nor will it be, <br />Im sick of it, <br />I'd rather jump off right now and be free from his chains, <br />And get away from a cold lonely world.<br /><br />Petra Soliman<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/24-hours-2/
