Like an unwanted guest, I came, said you… <br />Mother, you never saw me though, never knew me within. <br />A reason to smile, I thought, I would be, <br />…Little did I know, that it was tears I brought, tears of remorse. <br />For the warmth of your love, your caring touch, I craved, <br />But cold I felt, in the darkness of your womb, <br />Coldness from your heart, of despair, or…of hatred? <br />To the world unknown and wide, I wished to open my eyes, <br />Yet little did I know, that I was never to see, the world outside you. <br />I wished to be a raindropp in the middle of summer, to quench your thirst, <br />But for you, WHY MOTHER, was I mere a dark cloud, to hide new spring’s sunlight? <br /> <br />…My child, I longed to see you, to know you, to love you, <br />Yet smile you failed to bring, you came as a surprise, I never wished for. <br />I feared to love you, my dear, agony and pain, it’d bring, I knew, <br />For you were never to belong, never to be called mine. <br />My love for you I tried to hide, beneath the mask of hatred and wrath, <br />But in my moments alone, I couldn’t hide, you were mine, a part of me. <br />Confused, weighing between right and wrong, I waited, heart heavy with pain, <br />For the moment of loss, your loss, was near, I knew. <br /> <br />…A pain in my veins, drifts me into a land of dreams, numb to the world around, <br />I float around, in the world of memories, misty sights, unknown lands. <br />As time ticks by, a puzzle unsolved and solved, with no traces left, and- <br />I open my eyes, to know that you have gone, no longer there, no longer mine. <br />Eyes moist with tears warm, I welcome the darkness of dusk that cover me, <br />The truth dawning upon me that you remain a memory, as you were destined to be…<br /><br />Sreeja Sreedharan<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/unwanted-guest/
