I live a lie. <br />I pretend to be someone im not, <br />On the outside i seem happy. <br />Like im perfectly fine and all. <br />Yet my life still feels incomplete. <br />I Feel like im searching for something, <br />But for what i don’t know. <br />I feel dead inside, Its empty <br />One minute im happy, Next im sad <br />Then im crashing down in tears. <br />I cry till i can cry no more. <br />Next comes the numbness, <br />Then it all starts again. <br />I feel detached from everything and everyone, <br />I don’t care about anything or anyone. <br />Its like im merely an observer. <br />I look in the mirror, I don’t recognise the person ive become <br />Im so far away from everything. <br />I so desperately want to change, <br />But i feel as if i have no strength left. <br />My life feels as if its over before it began. <br />Why me i ask myself? <br />Whats wrong with me? <br />No one knows what it feels like! <br />You want people to understand... <br />No matter what they say, they cant, <br />Not unless they’ve experienced it. <br />I feel so alone in a huge crowd. <br />I don’t know why? <br />I just want this feeling to go away. <br />But i know it wont.Even when im happy <br />I know it won’t.<br /><br />justine spohn<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/my-mask-19/
