I haven't felt like this in a long time. <br />Just when I started believing <br />that I was immune to love <br />that I was too cold, <br />too closed up inside for love <br />You strike into my heart and <br />burn open the hole that I thought <br />was closed forever. <br />It feels bloody pathetic <br />to know that all my efforts <br />to remain distanced from emotions <br />just got blown up again. <br />And you're not even all that cute. <br /> <br />Now I can't sleep at night <br />because my mind runs off on its own <br />with the secret fantasy <br />that you love me too. <br />I can't sleep at night <br />because my mind's too busy <br />spinning possibilities <br />to meet you again. <br /> <br />I cling onto that thin connection <br />that ties us together <br />almost as eagerly, desperately <br />pathetically <br />as I'd cling onto the only branch <br />that keeps me from falling to hell. <br />If you had any clue, <br />I'm sure you'd despise me. <br /> <br />Fervently I wait for <br />a word from you. <br />All this waiting drives me <br />to the verge of insanity. <br />You have no idea <br />how much everything you say <br />means to me <br />I crave a word, a message from you <br />as badly as I crave salvation. <br />In fact <br />if I could just hear your voice <br />if you would just talk to me <br />I think I would be saved. <br />At least you would be easing <br />all this empty fire that is <br />consuming me. <br /> <br />I thought I was rational <br />and that I would never feel like this again. <br />You just proved me wrong. <br />Infatuations really suck.<br /><br />Yiling Ding<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/infatuations/
