Object of wonder and mystery… <br />I peer towards you without you knowing….. <br />I concoct my plan of attack…. <br /> <br />Carefully ever so carefully….. <br /> <br />I get close to you and study your weaknesses so that I may weaken you even more in other areas…. <br />Oh let me probe at your insides.....tug at your soul....disable your spirit.... segment your well being.....slice your pride then stitch you with false love…. <br /> <br />I enjoy lifting you up, playing with your mind, throwing your heart to the ground after I tear it to shreds… <br /> <br />I need to break you… <br />I need to hurt you… <br />I need to play with your emotions 'til I am satisfied and get my fill of thrills that boost my ego and self esteem…. <br />I want to make you feel loved and unwanted at the same time…. <br /> <br />Yes my butterfly it was all an experiment to me…to see what I could do…to see what you’d take and how much your heart would break…. <br /> <br />And that because of me.... <br />How many tears your eyes could make..... <br />How fast you’d fall for my lies over and over again.... <br />How badly you wanted me by looking into your eyes… <br /> <br />Yes butterfly I lied to your face not only to deceive you but to abuse you… <br />Abuse the love you had developed… <br />The experimentation of developing false love built upon the betrayal I dealt you… <br />The thrills were worth your pain I caused you….. <br /> <br />Sweet butterfly with broken wings…. <br />I miss you so much… <br />I didn’t want to let you go but you flew away… <br />How I loved to hurt you…. <br /> <br />Come back to me so that I can yet again start the cycle over… <br />My ego and self esteem needs you…. <br />Oh come back for my next experimentation….. <br />More torture I have in store for you…. <br /> <br />***This was wrote as if it is him saying this about me; it's my take on the situation although he DID admit he played with me on purpose to see how I'd react*** <br /> <br />~Kristy C. Artmann~ © 2007<br /><br />Kristy Artmann<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/z-a-lavish-vile-experimentation-what-i-was-to-him/
