Sorry for all the trouble I've caused <br />I guess I will never be good enough <br />And every thing will always be my fault <br />In years to come I hope things get better <br />But deep in my heart and soul I know that they won't <br />I'm sorry for being a burden <br />Guess I always knew I should have died <br />And left all this pain behind <br />Should have known I'd be better off six feet under <br />I know every thing I do will never be good enough <br />So why should I bother <br />Why should I bother even trying <br />Should have given up like all the others <br />But I don't know if I want to live or die <br />In my mind I do want to die <br />But deep down I want to live <br />Either that or I'm scared of going to hell <br />Can't find the answers to my questions anymore <br />And everyone I thought I could count on <br />Says all the wrong things <br />But what else is new <br />I tried to trust someone but I can't even trust myself <br />And I'm tired of being here in this town <br />Hate it here thought everyone knew <br />Feels like no matter how hard I try not to cry <br />Theres always something there that makes me shed some tears <br /> <br />December 31,2007<br /><br />ESPN CHICK<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/why-should-i-bother/
