Tears falling down my face <br />I wonder what am I gonna do <br />This pain is killing me slowly but surly <br /> <br />And I don't want to die <br />No not yet anyhow <br /> <br />I just want to live my life with out pain for once <br />Without tears falling down my face every other day <br />Cause this life I'm living is getting old <br /> <br />I just want to quit worrying my life away <br />But for some reason my heart won't let me <br /> <br />It won't let me forget the past <br />Forget all those painful moments <br />My heart won't let me forget those thoughts, those horrible thoughts <br /> <br />Those thoughts about him <br />Those thoughts about suicide <br /> <br />Oh why won't my heart let me forget these things <br />And this life means nothing at all <br />Nothing to me anyhow cause I know I'm not gonna make it past these storms <br /> <br />I've got too much pain to offer and not enough love <br />Not enough happy memories <br /> <br />Every time I think about the past <br />Tears fall down my face at night <br />Cause I hide all the tears during the day while people are around <br /> <br />I put on a fake smile when no one is looking <br />And I cover up my face in the mirror <br /> <br />Cause I hate what I see <br />I hate that I can't be me <br />Be who I want to be without getting shot down <br /> <br />I feel like I want to scream out loud <br />And maybe punch the wall a few times <br /> <br />Feel like this life is going no where <br />Going no where but dead ends <br />This life is longing for something but what <br /> <br />This life needs something more than this <br />More than just pain and painful memories <br /> <br />This life needs a change <br />A change from the inside out <br />This life needs something I will never have <br /> <br /> <br />May 5,2008<br /><br />ESPN CHICK<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/this-life-23/
