My soulmate. <br />my ghost. <br />not my lover <br />yet... <br />my greatest love. <br />a first for me, <br />built entirely on faith. <br /> <br />my faith, <br />my laughable, jokeable faith. <br />my faith has let me down <br />too many times to count. <br /> <br />it doesn so much fade <br />as it waxes and wanes <br />rolling in and washing out <br />like the tide on a beach. <br /> <br />some days. <br /> <br />some days i awaken <br />fully believing in <br />the power of 'someday' <br /> <br />and others. <br /> <br />and others i wake up <br />to a dense fog called doubt <br />so thick i choke. <br /> <br />but every day. <br /> <br />But EVERY DAY <br />I wake up with this love. <br />sometimes buoyant and joyous. <br />sometimes dark and consuming. <br /> <br />this love. <br />is not imagined <br />this love is real. <br /> <br />the pain lets me know it is real. <br /> <br />by shannon flanders <br />12-13-07 <br />djlw<br /><br />shannon wright<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/the-pain-lets-me-know-it-is-real/
