To you I am apologizing for the sins I have made, for the mistakes that I did make, and the regret that i stayed. <br />I'm sorry for lieing, while looking in your eyes. <br />Watching you get hurt, by my selfishness lies. <br />To you I am sorry for cheating my way out. <br />To you I am sorry for being the one to always make you pout. <br />I'm sorry that I stayed with him despite your wishes. <br />I guess I couldn't resist the candy, nor the temptation of his kisses. <br />I took the wrong path, that i know. <br />I cannot take those things back, I stooped lower than low. <br />I can only imagine the judgements that they say. <br />I have come along way from whiskey and cocaine. <br />I am trying to make a change ma, <br />I really do not want to end up like pa. <br />As I am telling you this, i am flying high. <br />Please don't abandon me, dont say goodbye, <br />I beg you for forgiveness, as I am pleading on one knee. <br />I am trying to be substance free. <br />But will you still help me? <br />What is black to you is white to me, <br />What sins i am making, I cannot see. <br />There are angels in your world, <br />Satin in mine. <br />You see the halo's as they brightly shine. <br />I see fire, burning up in flames. <br />As we do our drugs, drink our booze, forget eachothers names. <br />Maybe I am not better, <br />am I crazy? <br />Mom are you still there? <br />Everything is going hazy. <br />Please hold my hand, tell me I did not fail you, that you understand. <br />I can slowly see a light mom, i think god has forgiven me. <br />Maybe this is my chance to be. <br />Someone better, someone to make you proud. <br />Why can't I see you anymore, why is my body not found? <br />As I lie on this floor dead and blue. <br />The last person i thought of was.. well... it was you<br /><br />Ashley Morrison<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/recovering-2/
