you know not everything is fine, <br />when you catch yourself lying, <br />just to make what you doing, <br />seem alright to keep doing, <br />like somehow it will all work itself out, <br />and it will be this magical dream, <br />that you been dreaming all along, <br />just to wake up and you all alone, <br />it feels like a drug, <br />i want to quit, <br />but i feel like the pain, <br />will be alot worse if i do, <br />i'm trying to find this balance, <br />but it's hard, <br />first i have to accept, <br />where i went wrong, <br />and move on from there, <br />there are so many things i rather be doing, <br />but that will be taking the easy way out, <br />where have that really gotten me? <br />right back in the same spot, <br />wondering where i went wrong, <br />i have nobody to blame, <br />but myself, <br />yes, my past may have interfered a bit, <br />but i made the choice to be stubborn, <br />and make a mistake i'm regretting.<br /><br />mona martinez<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/denial-is-catching-up-to-me/
