This is so scary <br />Not having control of my body <br />Not having control of me <br /> <br />This is so scary <br />people don't understand <br />people just can't see <br />how much this is hurting me <br /> <br />This is so scary <br />wishing I wasn't this person <br />wishing I was a delusion <br />that I wasn't real <br /> <br />If only people could understand how I feel <br />the heaviness in me <br />the sadness in me <br />the pain in me <br /> <br />This is so scary <br />wanting to belong <br />wanting to be heard <br /> <br />I cant even describe the fullness of the pain <br />it comes upon me physically and emotionally <br />I suppose I am insane <br />wishing I wasn't the same <br /> <br />It's like my life is a game <br />someone is up there, playing with it <br />This is it <br />this is how it's meant to be <br />this is my life <br />this is me<br /><br />Nicole Buckland<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-m-scared-of-my-life/
