I have many problems, many fears <br />Built up angerm, drink away my tears. <br />Intoxicating myself until I am calm, <br />Regardless of the fact that I am hurting my mom. <br />I slowly pull out the '26', <br />to give myself my fix. <br />To forget about the pain that I endure, <br />thinking that alchohol could be my cure. <br />I cannot talk to anyone, I seem to have a bulit up wall. <br />That blockage to my heart won't seem to fall. <br />Everything created by my messed up life, <br />Nothing seems to help, should i pick up that knife? <br />But i know killing myself is wrong, and something that cowards do. <br />But can't anyone see right now what i need is you? <br />I need my best friend who hates me right now, <br />When did i let my life get to this and how? <br />Many problems occuring with my father, <br />who treated me nothing like his daughter. <br />Who i had to watch hurt my mom from day to day, <br />there was nothing i could do, nothing i could say. <br />The alchohol rageing through him, <br />now im drinking just like him? <br />I would watch my mom cry night after night, <br />This intoxicated man putting up one hell of a fight. <br />Why am i turning out like that, drinking all the time. <br />Am i just like that man i hate, or simply losing my mind? <br />My relationship with my mom is slowing drifting away, <br />im pushing her further away each day. <br />I'm breaking her heart, as we do drift apart. <br />I dont think she knows how much i need her, <br />instead of alchohol could she be my cure? <br />Could she be the one to save me and help me see, <br />Im slowly loosingg my life long dream? <br />Maybe that is why i always hear her scream. <br />Not to hurt me but to help, <br />there is so many heartaches that i have felt. <br />Hopefully she could change me from being a zero, <br />Maybe my mother, could be my hero.<br /><br />Ashley Morrison<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/my-problems-my-fears/
