Fear rises up inside me I take a step back from you <br /> But you pull me closer again <br />And in your eyes I see the anger <br />Not angry because of me <br />Or something I did <br />But you’ll take it out on me anyway <br /> I know what’s coming <br /> You’ll knock me down <br />You’ll call me a stupid bitch <br />And tell me I’m worthless <br />And the more I hear it <br />The more I believe it I can’t leave you I can’t walk away <br />Not only because you’d follow me <br />But for fear of what you may do <br />To me or those I love <br />So I stay and listen to you <br />Berating me over and over <br />I deal with the hits I deal with the words <br />Or so I thought <br />You have destroyed me I realize now that u affected me <br />In more ways than I imagined <br />Affected how I view myself <br />Affected how I view others <br />Affected my ability to trust <br />Affected my ability to love <br />I’m working on getting it back <br />But in the process I have hurt those <br />I care for most I have pushed them away <br />And ruined precious relationships <br />That cannot be repaired <br />However, I regret nothing <br />Only because there is no time for regrets In this life <br />My only wish is that someone <br />Does to you What you have done to me <br />Kill you on the inside<br /><br />ASENA MARIE SATAN'S SPAWN<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/is-this-abuse-in-the-past/
