Overwhelmed by impatience; reading letters <br />from him, time has stopped, minutes take hours <br />and hours take ages to pass, I can’t wait anymore, <br />I can’t stand the noise of the clock and the sound <br />of my nieces’ voices, I can’t listen to uncle slurping <br />tea and music from the TV, I can’t wait for the sun <br />to rise and then to set again; I can’t listen to mouths <br />chewing and footsteps in the passage; I can’t stand <br />calls to the dogs and trucks coming and going; I <br />can’t stand lights switching on and the moon rising; <br />I can’t stand preparing meals and then eating then <br />cleaning; I’ve passed my ability to be calm and <br />content; I can’t wait any more; I can’t remain in <br />my skull; I can’t be me anymore, can’t sit quietly, <br />can’t listen to my own thoughts; all that remains <br />to break this chain suffocating me, tightening <br />around my neck, is to cry; all I can do is seek relief <br />in tears; abandoning myself to sobbing away my <br />grief and my fears; I’m growing hysterical – I can’t <br />wait anymore, I can’t wait, I can’t and I won’t and <br />I need to get away; to run to a place where I can be <br />alone and the silence is complete; I need to conjure <br />a vision of his face and meet him in my dreams; <br />I can’t breathe and live on; I’m going to run and <br />run and run until it is quiet and I’m on my own; <br />please let me see him again, please bring him to <br />me, please; I’m going mad with impatience, please, <br />I need to be with him, I cannot live without him…<br /><br />Louise Tredoux<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-cannot-live-without-him/
