On days like this I am all consumed, <br />By a heaviness, <br />Wondering how I got myself <br />Into this very mess, <br /> <br />This is not the path that, <br />I was meant to walk upon, <br />I feel that the steps I take <br />Barely touch the ground, <br /> <br />My dreams in my younger days, <br />Have all but disappeared, <br />The songs I sang in my head, <br />I can no longer hear, <br /> <br />The life with him had been nothing more, <br />Than wasted precious time, <br />I can’t seem to find my way, <br />I have fallen far behind, <br /> <br />So many things in life, <br />That I wanted to accomplish, <br />Being a good mother <br />Was my solitary wish, <br /> <br />Being in a marriage, <br />Filled with respect and admiration, <br />I gave all of myself to him, <br />Without his adoration, <br /> <br />No one can expect anyone, <br />To stay in something empty, <br />Marriage is supposed to be, <br />The land of good and plenty, <br /> <br />So in order to save my soul, <br />And live a life of happiness, <br />I had to walk away from him, <br />And all his shallow emptiness, <br /> <br />In all this time since I have gone, <br />To live life on my own, <br />Inside my heart there’s still a void, <br />And I feel all alone, <br /> <br />A woman who bears children, <br />Should never be without, <br />The love they give because in truth, <br />It’s what life is all about. <br /> <br /> <br />2011<br /><br />Victoria Gauci<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-feel-all-alone/
