I don't know how this goes <br />I don't what to say <br />To tell myself i'm wrong, and forever feel this pain <br /> <br />I know that this will hurt you, but there is no other way <br />To tell that your greatest fear, is here with me today <br />If you hate me after this i will understand, but i can not change who i am <br /> <br />All these feelings for those that you instructed me to hate, have turned to love that i live with everyday <br />Maybe someday i will tell you about my endless shame, but for now i'll just sit here living with this pain <br />I love them both as you guessed before, i feel like you read my mind when you said what you said <br /> <br />But now i know that you always knew, you just hid it very well <br />Maybe when i'm older i'll be freed from my pain, but i know that it will stay with me forever all my days <br />I can not change what i was born with, i feel so confused right now <br /> <br />I wish that you were here tell where i where i'm wrong, but i know that i'll just say i'm not <br />Does anyone else feel so alone, does anyone else feel like nobody care's <br />If my darling is there with you, tell that i love her and hope she love's me too <br /> <br />I've felt love once before, it's gone now by your own doing <br />I have felt it since, but now it's a fadeing memory <br />I hope these words will wound your heart, like you have wounded mine <br /> <br />I loved you once but thats gone, my hatred towards you will never end <br />You killed my heart, my love, my peace, my soul, this never ending trama <br />I will end this someday soon, you will never see me smile again <br /> <br />This was for you, my life writen on the screen <br />The one who thought the most to me for a time, the one who loved me first <br />My first teacher, my first mentor, my ex-bestfriend <br /> <br />My Mother<br /><br />Helen Hanson<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-can-t-change/
