Oh how I wish it would end <br />All of the sceraming <br />That you all do when I'm <br />In that deep sleep state of dreaming. <br /> <br />Try as I do to drown out the screaming <br />Of all of you with my syncronized snoring <br />And I'm too self-centered and spastic <br />To open my eyes to the signs of warning. <br /> <br />Those signs of warning <br />That you put up clear enough for me to see <br />They're saying that I'm hating who I'm becoming <br />A spastic-self-centered-b! tch, not quite like I used to be. <br /> <br />I wanted to be different <br />Then that girl I knew a year ago <br />But I think I took it too far <br />Because I've become someone I do not know. <br /> <br />I'm Scaring myself <br />Maybe even more then I'm scaring any of you <br />I'm so scared, I need some help <br />Because I have no idea what to do. <br /> <br />I hate my life, I whisper to myself <br />As i stare at the cieling, While Lieing on my back <br />Then i begin to write you a love note <br />But i only get three words in, before everything went black, <br />I Am Sorry..... <br /> <br />November 17/08<br /><br />Raya McManus<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/scared-of-myself/
