Stop giving me refills, <br />Take away all these pills. <br />They can't ease my pain <br />All they do is confuse my brain. <br />Only in a state of constant bliss, <br />Will they forever be my fix. <br />One, two, four, eight..... <br />How many will I have to take to do the job? <br />Each time it seems I take more and more. <br />I know I said I'd quit, <br />But once you start its hard to stop. <br />When you say okay lets have a normal day <br />It never works <br />All it does is bring you more pain. <br />With nothing to gain <br />Nothing can take it away, <br />Not even the pills that numb <br />My heart or brain <br />I can't taste the cigarrettes I smoke anymore <br />The sent is gone <br />Leaving a cloud of smoke <br />That I can't even seem to sense is there <br />Right now everything is bare <br />I'm not sure how much longer I can go on like this <br />In my little land full of blis <br />I know how I really feel, <br />But little do you know <br />There are things you will never hear <br />Like me getting messed up... <br />Just to try and block you out of my brain <br />So at the end of the day <br />I'll sleep just fine <br />Doing things with my hair <br />And trying new things just to see if it will make me <br />Feel pretty. <br />You never hear me say.. <br />How sometimes I wish to die <br />And wish I never cried <br />So many things you don't know <br />And never will <br />Like me wishing to kill <br />Not myself or you, <br />But all who look at you... <br />All who look at you in the same way I do <br />We all know I'd never do that <br />But little do you know how many times <br />It goes through my head <br />Driving me crazy <br />There isn't even a word to describe my insanity <br />I can't stop, <br />I've tried, it doesn't work <br />I need something to get me through the day <br />You use to be there for me to make sure everything was okay <br />But now that you're gone I need something else <br />Something that will let me live in my little land full of bliss <br />Thats why I can't stop all these things that bring me <br />My temporary little fix!<br /><br />Beautifully Unknown<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/temporary-little-fix/
