world not all that it seems, <br />it's a cruel place, <br />where things happen, <br />without an explanation, <br />i use to think there was a reason, <br />to why things happen, <br />now...i don't know what to think, <br />nothing is making sense, <br />i want a way out, <br />but don't know how, <br />i'm sick of dealing with pain, <br />it something i can't control, <br />but, it seem to stick to me like tape, <br />in some shape or form, <br />i think of one way out, <br />just to be free, <br />from this life i call prison, <br />nothing seem to change, <br />life still gets the best of me, <br />sometimes family can't understand, <br />to them, <br />i'm not suffering, <br />it's all in my head, <br />to them, <br />i'm just crazy, <br />because i'm different in a way, <br />they just don't understand, <br />i doubt that they ever will, <br />i'm doing everything i can, <br />just to seem fine, <br />they don't know, <br />i'm missing everything in my life, <br />my happiness i had in life, <br />everything i had going for me, <br />i would trade life, <br />just so i won't feel this pain, <br />i know life has pain, <br />why this much? <br />what the point? <br />i'm hating myself more, <br />should i just give in? <br />Copyright © 2009 <br />11-18-09<br /><br />mona martinez<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/giving-in-to-the-pain/
