I was nowhere near ready when all it ended <br />So I hoped we could find a new day, cannot live without you <br /> <br />You gave me the chance, time and again, in vain <br />Now my feelings for you, every tear, every smile, paid in full <br />Break the chain, but no longer can I take the pain <br /> <br />It's hard for me to love myself right now, <br />I've waited, hated, blamed it all on you <br /> <br />Needed to be strong, yet I was always too weak <br />So I can only blame myself for this state we are in <br />I will take what you have for me now, if it's not too late <br />Did you change? I did too. Love can grow from the last grain <br /> <br />It's hard for me to love myself right now, <br />I've waited, hated, blamed it all on... <br /> <br />You... <br />I need you...less and less... <br />Every day feeds this moral decay <br />Yet I have grown to love you even more <br /> <br />I fall back, and I turn another cheek. <br />You mouth the words you're not ready to speak <br />You're scared of me now; no I never had a clue <br />That I'd become so much stronger than you. <br /> <br />I will take - what you have - for me now, if it's not too late <br /> <br />If you like, I will leave; I will not miss the last train again <br /> <br />It's hard for me to love myself right now, <br />I've waited, hated, blamed it all on you... <br /> <br />It's hard for me to love your face right now <br />I'm waiting, hating, needing being <br /> <br />Me... <br />I need you...less and less and <br />Every day leads us farther away... <br />From that moment <br /> <br />Is hard for me to hate myself right now <br />Finally I'm understanding me <br />One day we may have whole new me's and you's <br />But first I need to learn to love me too....<br /><br />milijana jovanovic<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/paid-in-full-3/
