I feel tired, I feel bare, <br />I feel unusual, I feel guilt, <br />I’m filled with remorse, <br />There is this deep compunction in me. <br /> <br />I started thinking, thinking <br />While I watch the rain pour, <br />But I am distracted by happier thoughts <br />More dominant than the regret I feel. <br /> <br />But most likely I am affected, <br />Affected by trust, affected by losing it, <br />I watch my self tumble down into <br />Perplex thoughts and feelings. <br /> <br />I am trap, I am gone, <br />I am free, I am done, <br />I have fallen, I am broken, <br />I am new, I am open. <br /> <br />I am calm, I am negative, <br />I am happy, I am positive, <br />I am harsh, I’m confused, <br />I am kind, I’m unrefused. <br /> <br />I am masked, I am pained, <br />I am hopeful, I am vain, <br />I am worthy, I am clean, <br />I’m unworthy, I am mean. <br /> <br />I am just baffled by differences, <br />I am cloaked in sin, <br />I am drenched in happiness, <br />But I am masked by hurt. <br /> <br />And all these things, <br />Just keep on revolving, <br />And I let myself sag into more lies, <br />Yet more needs.<br /><br />Nashy Lamen<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/ironic-differences/
