I am refugee in my own camp <br />Surrounded by barbed wires search lamps <br />Not a bird can enter and sing at will <br />All are aimed at to discourage me and kill <br /> <br />I have been put into black dungeon <br />Where not even stranger is allowed to come on <br />To ask about my well being and turn as well wisher <br />I am afraid that storm may unleash and not wither <br /> <br />I am coward and afraid of facing the truth <br />It may be my weakness and wouldn’t want to go through <br />I have suffered mental shock at deception <br />Even though I was doubtful since its inception <br /> <br />How far one can dare to enter into relationship? <br />How long one can expect smooth passage for the ship? <br />I think so long trust prevails and honesty does not deceive <br />The heart and mind synchronize to beats and receive <br /> <br />I was well deceived into believing this <br />I wanted everything to go well and made no miss <br />Every time I prayed for its long existence <br />Took full care not to pass a bad word or sentence <br /> <br />Yet the inevitable took place and I am shattered <br />Whole of my conception stand completely altered <br />I have shut myself in the prison having high walls <br />I refuse to take fresh air and even including calls <br /> <br />I want small hole in prison wall <br />From where only little ray can fall <br />This will be my last hope but chances may not be zero <br />Life has put me in tight spot and proved as flop hero<br /><br />hasmukh amathalal<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/in-my-own-camp/
