It was not that you were unkind <br />you were kind <br />and you reached out to me <br /> <br />but kindness was not my need <br />because too many, <br />one too many <br />had reached in that way before <br />held sway for a time <br />and then left <br />or fluttered away <br />like a summer butterfly <br /> <br />so kindness is suspect <br />has to be tested <br />put through little trials <br />where I would offer you <br />cold stares <br />and look away <br />ignoring you <br />now <br />smiling then <br />ignoring you once again <br />meantime <br />trying to find out about <br />your past beaus <br />your last lover <br /> <br />I googled you <br />over and over again <br />trusting only <br />my computer <br />and people who knew people <br />who claimed to know people <br />you knew <br /> <br />and then that done <br />there was only me <br />and only you; <br />me wanting you to demonstrate- <br />no overcome- <br />my doubts <br />while I watched and waited <br />waited to see how long you <br />would stay sincere <br />how long it would take me <br />to trust <br />that you were trustworthy <br />and then <br />I panicked when you showed <br />discouragement and didn't call <br />didn't show the same enthusiasm <br />saw you looking at other girls <br />but I couldn't tell <br />if it was me <br />having discouraged you <br />or you reverting to type, <br />that type that <br />gives the big rush <br />looking for the easy conquest <br />and quickly got bored <br />and then looked on for easier ones <br /> <br />Teens and twenties. <br />Hell.<br /><br />Lonnie Hicks<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/teens-and-twenties/
