My body, mind, and soul is so very stressed <br />My life is on hold, I can't seem to rest <br /> <br />But rest is what I want to do <br />And sleep away my problems <br /> <br />It so very hard to dig in deep <br />And think of ways to solve them <br /> <br />Work, family, some personal affection <br />I only want some balance <br /> <br />I need some clear paths <br />That will give me some direction <br /> <br />The ADD is killing my brain <br />Causing daily dizzying pain <br /> <br />The constant criticism <br />From caring people in my life <br /> <br />Seems to cause nothing <br />But tension, frustration, and strife <br /> <br />I seem to let everyone down <br />But mainly myself <br /> <br />I feel like a hoarder <br />With my life on the shelves <br /> <br />I am depressed, I guess yes <br />I feel powerless, such a bother <br /> <br />My number one supporter <br />Has always been my mother <br /> <br />She has been my champion <br />Always remaining strong like no other <br /> <br />My heart aches so much <br />When I 'm causing her anguish <br /> <br />She wishes she were dead <br />Her life extinguished <br /> <br />That I bring so much pain <br />To everyone it just persists <br /> <br />My mind keeps saying <br />I don't want to exist <br /> <br />My daughter I love <br />So very deep and dearly <br /> <br />Her mother wants her lifestyle and money <br />This had cost me dearly <br /> <br />When i die, my dear daughter will remember <br />The good times and things funny <br /> <br />She'll know how much I loved her <br />And not my lack of money <br /> <br />The daily pain is becoming too much <br />Pills, and medication, daily despair <br /> <br />They sometimes help <br />But I'm running out of air <br /> <br />Suicide they say <br />Is a permanent end <br /> <br />To temporary problems <br />But not all problems mend <br /> <br />I wish there was <br />A clean painless way <br /> <br />My loved ones may suffer a little <br />Then there is always a new day <br /> <br />I will be nothing <br />But buried and turn into dust <br /> <br />All my life dreams gone <br />love, family, friends, and lust<br /><br />Adam Ant<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/worst-summer-of-my-life/
